finally another week that felt like a month has ended. as usual the commanders are nothing but pricks who love to play with us like toys.

i dono whether to feel happy or sad abt my army life. yes it's tough, but what's irritating is that it's not the training that is tough. that i can take. but it's the minute, trivial little things that they pick on that makes it tough. eg, packing our field packs, it has to be standardized to the last detail - how we pack it, which way to face, what to tape tgt, the brand of the toothbrush/paste etc.

so ppl, if we win a war anytime, it's becos we all soldiers black-taped our powder bottle and soap box.

on another hand, i am fortunate to have a bunch of fun-loving friends in my platoon. i'm glad im not part of the 'nightmare team', who are also a part of my platoon. but anw, after every tekan session or tense moment with the commanders, it becomes like a joke or a game. we laugh and joke abt the moment. we parodied them. it feels like the tekan thing was nothing when in actual fact, it felt like shit during the moment itself.

sigh. we serve ns becos we owe singapore a living. we don owe the commanders or the sergeant major a living ok. f-ed up ppl with no childhood.

ytd while in a cab on our way for supper after yet another tekan session, one of us commented, "how nice to be treated like a human again."

How true.

my week got worse.

i only reached home this morning, and i have to book in tonight. cos i did guard duty in hell ytd. why me, why saturday, why this week when i just reported only, i don know. no privilege, benefits, offs. i just have to suck thumb and do it. what kind of organisation is this.

whenever i come home i got a strong feeling to report sick or whatever, just to stay out of camp. this feeling got stronger today.

damn it. i feel like a singapore maid.

all i want is a decent wkend.

im in a foul mood now. my driving course ended today and we were told to report back to our unit tmr morning. this, despite the official end date of the course being oct 4. wtf.

worse, we called our bird brained 'boss' and he told us to book in tonight instead. TONIGHT! like wtf.

this is stupid. although i know i have to return to my unit sooner or later but this is not right. other passers get to go back later becos they were so luckily assigned to learn their bloody vehicles on a different day. so, while now it's their turn to learn, we have to report back. WTF.

i hate my unit. i've only been there for 3 days before, but in those short 3 days, they have made us hate them and dread going back. how happy were we when we found out the date of the driving course. how long those 3 days felt. how happy that bird brained faggot must be at the thought of us going back so he can tekan us and punish us for the slightest and negligible 'mistakes'. how delighted his pea brained friend must be at the thought of shouting commands over and over again and watching us act like dogs in tamagotchis.

so what if other ppl are going through the same thing as me. so what if other ppl get through worst fates than me. tt doesnt make the system fair. 2 wrongs don make a right.

Serve And Fuckoff.